Dear Wise Women,
Seven weeks ago we met in the field and set off on a path. No road map. No plan. No destination. Just a profound willingness to expand in the direction of love.
And, oh my goodness, can you believe what has transpired since then?
Oh wise women, I truly believe something magical happened back in that field. I believe that our openness, our curiosity, our innocence, our wonder, our willingness to meet one another so fully initiated some sort of alchemical reaction. I believe that we touched, and were touched by, the same magical energy that turns a caterpillar into a butterfly and coaxes a rose out of its bud. Unbeknownst to us, we received this magic… our hearts united and we agreed to open.
And in doing so, we unlocked an ancient memory. A memory of a time when our hearts only knew about pure love. A time when our hearts were unlocked and unguarded.
Whether for a fleeting second or a for a day, we remembered, and we felt the sensation of an infinitely expansive heart.
And then, as we must, we returned to the path. The human path. Where expansive hearts do not feel safe. And we (innocently) contracted.
But something is different this time - the contractions feel familiar but the path feels different. Its like we are walking the same labyrinth but it is much bigger than the last time we walked it. There is a spaciousness and an awareness around the contraction. It still hurts, we still feel frightened…but there is something else going on - there is a source of ease beneath the contraction, a river reminding us to stay open and keep flowing.
And it helps that we are not alone.
Hand in hand, we ride the waves. We support each other on our relentless quest to un-condition love and to un-earth our innocence. Piece by piece, rock by rock we notice the fortress walls relaxing… the jewel is slowly being revealed.
And eventually we come face to face with the loyal defenders of the fortress around our hearts. We come to realize that these vigilant guards, though they served us at some point, are no longer needed. We see how they are preventing us from receiving the love we want to receive, and giving the love we want to give.
And buoyed by this river, we say yes. We say YES to our deep, deep longing to experience unguarded love.
“Unguarded Love”, This title came through me as full body experience this week. Swimming in the wake of all that had been revealed over the past three weeks, it became painfully clear how much easier it is to be in the field of love with you women than with my partner, my children, my mother. I noticed my tendency to blame them for this “disconnect”. I noticed the tightness in my chest, an all to familiar feeling in our relationships. My mind almost tricked me into spiraling down the familiar loop of blame and resentment. But my heart wouldn’t allow it this time.
My heart said its time to let go of your remaining defenses.
Its time to trust that Love knows how to protect itself.
And so, bravely, slowly, and and very, very gently I am embarking on a new way of loving…
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No longer afraid of what they will say,
I speak the way love wants to speak.
No longer afraid of what they won’t say,
I speak the way love wants to speak.
No longer afraid of how they’ll react,
I act the way love wants to act.
No longer afraid of how they’ll feel
I touch the way love wants to touch.
One step at a time,
one word at a time,
one gesture at a time,
I explore this new way of walking in the field
unguarded.
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Wise women, will you embark on this new way with me?
With endless love,
Patti