“When we see ourselves as the sun and everyone we meet as planets in our orbit, we are trapped in the I-It relationship, objectifying everyone we meet.
But when we can meet others as equal living beings, each with their own center, then we live out the I and Thou relationship, through which the Mystery manifests as a vital life-force between us.”
- Mark Nepo
“Beloved” by Autumn Skye Morrison
Dear Wise Women,
Oh my, what a journey it has been in the space between our last gathering and this one!
During my return back to my hometown and to my family of origin I was able to see many aspects of myself and my family in a new light. It seems that the physical space and the passage of time helped me to become aware of destructive patterns and habits. It also helped me to witness the gap between how I and others appeared externally and who we all really are (infinite love).
For the first portion of our visit I was able to observe these patterns with compassion and hold presence, and I was blessed to witness magical transformation between many family members. Buoyed by the river beneath the river, I was able to to stay in my heart and sense the liminal space where creativity and healing reside. It was more beautiful than words can describe!
Perhaps this was divinely orchestrated (who am I kidding…of course it was)! For had the pathway not been so elegantly paved, I am not sure that my heart would have opened up enough to move through what transpired during the second part of our visit (and continued upon our return to Salt Spring…and continues still).
Contracting Covid and becoming very ill triggered old wounds and propelled me into a state of emotional turmoil. I was taken over by memorized emotions from previous illnesses which, of course, amplified my suffering. In addition, I judged myself for spiralling into such emotional darkness and I be-rated myself saying “This is not who I am!”
And then one morning a fierce love arose through me - for me. And, with crystal clarity, this devoted force declared that she was not going to have anymore of these beliefs! It was time to clear the field and step into my integrated and true Self.
During my integration (which continues and will continue for a lifetime), I was guided to finally read some of Joe Dispenza’s work. I devoured one of his entire books in three days. As they say, when the student is ready, the teacher appears.
The following passage, especially stood out for me:
When we memorize addictive emotional states such as guilt, shame, anger, fear, anxiety, judgment, depression, self-importance, or hatred, we develop a gap between the way we appear and the way we really are. The former is how we want other people to see us. The latter is our state of being when we are not interacting with all of the different experiences, diverse things, and assorted people at various times and places in our lives. If we sit long enough without doing anything, we begin to feel something. That something is who we really are.
When how you appear is who you are, you are truly free.
- Dr. Joe Dispenza, “Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself”
I have come to notice that there is a
gap between
who I project to the outside world
and who I am on the inside.
Only recently have I been able to name this gap
and greet it with Compassion.
And from this place of compassion
I see bridges popping up
Bridges between my inner and outer self
Bridges between your heart and mine
Magical Bridges
transforming what used to be a division
into a world of vast potential.
Will you meet me on the bridge?
- Patti Wardlaw